Holy Shit

Shoes which I have been lusting over for for years now (years!) have been found IN MY SIZE!!But, I already have go-to brown dunks:
They are similar, but The Thing Dunks have a more appealing texture and different shade of orange. And really, they are the shoes which created the need to get the pair that I already have. Don't you always want to get your first choice when the chance presents itself?

But then, I really need to not buy stuff that I don't need. I'm going to be poor again in a couple of months and will have to put my money into necessities when the time comes. Perhaps the shoe is too orangey overall? But still oh so pretty. Getting these wouldn't fill any gaps in my sneaker arsenal. But they would fill the gap in my heart. I don't know how to feel.

On the one hand, I really need them; and on the other, I'm going to need to eat. Why is life so hard?